While the world will be busy to find out the reasons behind the promising actor Sushant Singh Rajput’s untimely death which is reported to be due to suicide, I am still busy in finding solace in those dimpled smiles of the departed soul. What a tragedy! This man taught his on-screen son the worthlessness of committing suicide and find the meaning of life in giving it a try. And today he has easily forgotten what he had preached. More than half of his life was still untried. He will be looking at us as a young man of 34 smiling from his safe abode above.
Sushant was an arsenal of talent. Be it Kai Po Che or MSD or Byomkesh Bakshi or Chhichhore or even the lesser-known Kedarnath or Sonchiriya, he had cast a spell with his enchanting smiles. As Dhoni he was restrained, as Byomkesh he was enigmatic and as Ishaan of Kai Po Che or as Anirudh of Chhichhore, he was effervescent. Nevertheless, he was liked by all alike for the charm he added to every character he played.
The heart is still heavy as I am writing these words. Fingers are shaky! Why did you do this Sushant? You could wait a bit more. Problems could be resolved. You could hit all your worries out of the park just like what you did when you played that helicopter shot donning MSD’s jersey. Questions could be answered. Life could be given one more chance. Are you listening Sushant? Do I sound lunatic if I say I loved you so much that I can not even condemn what you just did? But what I hated the most was done by you. Maybe now you are sleeping on the lap of your mother. Maybe she is singing a lullaby to put you to sleep. But you have kept all of us awake. Donno what more is in store in the coming months of this dreadful year. Or is this the end? The song ‘ This is the end, my beautiful friend’ from ‘Apocalypse Now’ is reverberating in my ears as tears are drenching my cheeks. Keep smiling, Sushant.